Sunday, 5 June 2016

I Spy With My Little Eye...


It's been nearly three years now since I lost my hair.
I've always tried to resist from checking in the mirror every morning,but recently there have been little signs that my poor withered follicles have been trying their best to express themselves.
New eyelashes seem to be sprouting around my left eye, and some rather straggly, but very welcome, eyebrows are emerging on the right.
(This is going to be a VERY interesting look if it comes to fruition!)
I also seem to have a little Mohawk of white fluff too, which is rather exciting, but I'm not getting my hopes up too high.
Now, I'm sure that you are finding this to be very interesting indeed, (not!) but the reason why I wanted to write about this is because I've come to the conclusion that having Alopecia has probably been the most positive thing that has happened to me in a very long time.
Alopecia has taught me two valuable lessons that I will never forget, even if I start sprouting for England:
LESSON ONE:
I cannot control everything.
Alopecia cannot be 'fixed', no matter how hard I work, or however many hours I put in.
Alopecia will do what Alopecia wants.
LESSON TWO:
Nobody will ever judge me as harshly as I judge myself.
(I'm sure that this is the same for every human being on planet Earth, it just took me a while to realise this.)
Therefore, nothing will ever be as scary or terrifying as the things I tell myself.
I am so very glad that I have something that is so visible, if my anxiety had manifested a condition that you couldn't actually see, I am sure that I would have just 'cracked on' or 'soldiered through'.
Alopecia made not just myself, but my family reconsider what we actually wanted from life.
And life is a lot better.
Thank you Alopecia.



18 comments:

  1. You are lush, you are. xxxx

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  2. I knew it was happening!!!!! However I love you with or without hair xxx

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    1. Thanks chuck, you are so lovely.
      I don't know if it will grow back properly but who knows! X

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  3. What you have written has made me think about how it can be something which went wrong which makes us appreciate how much else is going well, how we should appreciate those things and enjoy them. Thank you.

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    1. Thank you so much, it means ever so much to hear such comments x

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  4. Woo - wasn't expecting that! I know you wear a hat, but thought that it was due to the weather! Bit tricky to know what to comment here. Could all be a bit trite. So I will just get the kettle on and have a celebratory bourbon! Celebrating life and creativity in general. xxx

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    1. Yay!
      You can have a jammy dodger too! X

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  5. this is beautiful! and inspiring! x

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  6. Both of those are very wise comments. Sometimes we slog on in a situation that you know is not right for you but you just slog on and only something monumental makes you change.

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    1. That's why I love blogging so much, it really helps to get my thoughts down and it really helps to share those thoughts with lovely folk like yourself x

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  7. a gold shining star for this blog entry! love, love,love!

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    1. Thank you Heidi Sue,
      I hope it's one of those sticky ones you used to get at school xxx

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  8. Inspiring post. Jess's hair started to grow back while she was travelling in Australia. It threw her a lot as she'd accepted Alopecia, accepted her wigs but hadn't expected this. Her type of wig means she has to have no hair to get the fit right. So for the moment she is shaving as not ready to see what happens. We are going to the Alopecia UK conference in Glasgow in September so Jess can get some advice there. Happy moment when she thought she found an eyelash.
    Well done for being so positive xx

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    1. That is fabulous news!
      I didn't know there was a conference, sounds really interesting. When i had some hair I used to buy some fab wigs from China on Amazon and just wear a head stocking underneath, they never slipped or caused any problems.
      Sending much love to you and your daughter xxx

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  9. You are rather special Mrs B . In lots of unique & inspirational ways ... Always love visiting you in blog land . xxxx Many hugs .

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    1. Maria, thank you so much. That means the world to me x

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